Well that last post touched a nerve for sure. I think some people wondered if I was despondent or contemplating quitting. (NO. Not in the slightest. I am right where God wants me, without a doubt, and happy as a clam) Whatever, the outpouring of encouragement and support has been tremendous. Thanks to everyone for lifting my spirits!
Also, I want to make sure I am really clear. I wasn’t fishing for compliments or pats on the back with my previous post. Seriously, I am in fantastic shape emotionally, psychologically, and mentally. (physically is getting better too!) I wanted to share how God took some stuff that I originally really struggled with and turned it into some amazing personal growth in my walk with Christ.
See, I honestly can say now that I am not sad that those families left our church. I miss them, I really do. They are friends, and it is never easy when friends misunderstand your intentions and choose to leave. But God’s kingdom is WAY bigger than my church. If they can serve Christ better and grow in Him more elsewhere, then who am I to be upset about that? That is good for them and their family, and more importantly good for the kingdom of God. God has really, truly led me (back) to the place where I want to see His kingdom grow rather than mine. And for that, I am really grateful.
I forgot to add some of the blessings, too. The roof is being handled by a friend of the church who is an attorney. So we won’t need to pay the goofy company their demand. Yay! God is at work in so many amazing ways at church too. The boy who went to ICU on Monday will come home tomorrow. The friend going in for a biopsy found out that it was benign. We have an elder who we have really missed coming back onto the elder board. Family night starts back up in two weeks! We have a couple of people who responded to our missions outreach. I have been witness to Him healing at least one marriage recently. (still in progress, so pray if you would for this couple)
So please don’t hear “woe is me” in my last post. Hear the story of how God took the stuff that I saw as poo poo and used it to fertilize the soil of my soul. I just wanted to share the process, let you “behind the curtain” to realize that pastors are normal people too. We have bad days at work, make bad judgments and occasionally get petty. (okay, more than occasionally) We can take stuff personally that is really not meant that way. Every now and again someone uses the pastor as a surrogate because they are upset with God; when they do it hurts.
With that, though, most pastors I know are really good people who really feel called of God to do what they do. They want to serve the Lord by serving His people. And I am one of them. I am so privileged to be invited into people’s lives at the best and worst moments. I get to dedicate their children, pronounce them husband and wife, pray with them when they are buying a home, visit them in the hospital when they are sick. I get the joy of baptizing them, of mentoring and helping them commit to holiness and overcome sin. What a joy to be a pastor.
Sometimes the road is bumpy, and I wanted to share that with you all. I want to share much more, though, how much I love this road. I am joyful this week, resting in the grace of God and looking for ways to make His kingdom a higher priority. Thanks for taking the journey with me.